SUN GOES DOWN

Before Lil Nas X came out as gay in 2019, he struggled to come to terms with his sexuality. During this reflective track he talks about how he used to question his looks when younger, and the racist bullying he endured: Had friends but they was pickin' on me Always thinkin', "Why my lips so big? Was I too dark? The loneliness and alienation he felt: It's hard for you when you're fighting And nobody knows it when you're silent. He even contemplated suicide: Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life Send me a gun and I'll see the sun Once the rapper came out, he found a creative outlet through his music: I'm happy by the way That I made that jump, that leap of faith I'm happy that it all worked out for me I'ma make my fans so proud of me

Lil Nas X said he titled the song "Sun Goes Down" because, "I feel like at night is when those thoughts you try to avoid really start to hit and you can't escape them."

The rapper recalls finding solace in the @NasMaraj fan account he ran on Twitter. I'd be by the phone, Stanning Nicki morning into dawn Only place I felt like I belonged Strangers make you feel so loved, you know? Lil Nas X said he dedicated six years of his life to running the account.