In this minimal synth track, Mitski recalls the sacrifices she had to make during her rise to fame and the naysayers who tried to dissuade her from pursuing her dream. But the song is really about making a connection. "It's basically my one shot at truly connecting with the listener and expressing myself to this person who hopefully will connect," the singer told Pitchfork. "And I'm trying to give everything I have, so that I can get my feeling to that person."
Mitski took sonic inspiration from Beak, an electronic group from the UK co-founded by Geoff Barrow of Portishead. "I drew inspiration from how a lot of their production is very minimal, but it still feels significant and emotional, and it works," she explained. "I wrote this song when I didn't have an instrument around, so it was just me singing to myself. And so I wrote the words in the vocal melody. I think I got too used to not having any accompaniment 'cause when I tried to add chords to it or I tried to add accompaniment to it, nothing was satisfying. And so I finally just decided that I should allow it to be this minimal thing with just a simple beat and a few notes on synthesizer, and call it a day."
After the strain of touring and popping out albums became too much for her, Mitski nearly called it quits on her music career, with her 2019 show in Central Park being her purported last performance. Shortly after, she regretted the decision and got to work on her sixth album, Laurel Hell. She described the synth-heavy collection as "a soundtrack for transformation, a map to the place where vulnerability and resilience, sorrow and delight, error and transcendence can all sit within our humanity, can all be seen as worthy of acknowledgment, and ultimately, love."
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